Ty

I decided to word vomit! These are my feelings.. My thoughts and emotions. The last 39 days have been crazy... I have had many emotions through it all and couldn't ever really seem to take the time and just vent out how I really feel... So I decided to do it!


So I find that I have been posting little by little regarding Ty on facebook. Some days I feel like I write a ton and others very little.. I guess it depends on my mood and how much energy I actually have left in me! As I sit here on night 39 alone with Ty who just now falling back asleep. I sit here wishing I was home laying in bed next to my husband and thinking how great it would be if I woke up at home and ask him to get up with Ty b/c I'm to tired. How it seems like forever ago! I can recall his 1st night home.. I can still recall Tasha's 1st time home.. Both were so different and yet both had the same magical feeling! Feeling of love, joy, and excitement! It stinks b/c I can not recall the last night I slept in my bed! Or the last thing I cooked at home! I guess our minds are designed to recall werid crazy moments and yet forget others! Like child birth!! I mean we don't really totally forget but yet we can't recall it enough that here comes baby 2 and on my thats a lot of pain... why in the world did I do this... I can't take the pain this is incredible... yet baby 3 comes out. God's way of designing our brain to forget! Its amazing how I have changed myself in 39 days.. I use to be a very needy person.. Relied on Randy for everything. I use to have anixety of being alone. I have yet to stay at our house alone over night but yet I can survive 39 days in a hospital with Ty! Amazing what you are willing to change when it comes to your children. I mean yes I do still feel like there are aspects of me that need to grow up so to say.. but don't we all have a little childness in us here and there. I see that after 39 days I can do so much on my own.... But honestly... I don't want to. I want to have Randy as the person that makes it all better.. That can walk into the room and calm my heart and mind. That always makes me feel that no matter how small or how large our problem is.... it will always be fixable.. Weither we like it or not... that there is always a way we can look at the situation and seek something positive out of it.. even when you would rather just throw your hands up and just give up... But then seriously... whats the point of living. God throws something at you b/c he knows that you can handle it!!! Knows that it may take time but in the end if you trust in him and let him guide you with his hands it is possible!! I'm so tired and worn out and yet I aske him every night and morning to grant me another day of strength, courage, and understanding.. I realize that we will never have final answers b/c only the lord is a step ahead of us! But we can have peace with Trusting in him and letting him guide us! Though all of this I have never doubted our God.. But pulled him closer and held on tighter.. I have never questioned him and asked him why, in a way that most would.. Instead I try my hardest to thank him. Thank him for trusting that I can handle it. Thank him for believing that I can do it! I look at Tyus and think about what his name means... A Gift from God. I think how fitting it is.. I think of Natasha and think about what her name means.... birthday. Naming my children neither of them did I ever even look to see what the name means till after the fact.. When the birth certificate was signed. So I think of my children and I think of the meaning of there names and its so incredible on how fitting both of there names mean.. Tyus is so much a gift from God to us! We had such a hard time through out my pregnancy and there were times I seriously thought it just wasn't going to happen. After my miscarriages I never felt like it was real until I got to hold him for the 1st time. Tasha... I think of what a birthday is and what it means to me... A party... balloons, streamers, laughter and smiles.. That is my Tasha! A party! Anyone who has ever met her will say that she is a light! A joy! Someone that has this way of just making you smile and giggle!! Then I do think of my name and it means Blind... I guess you could read into that in a lot of different ways.. I read it as Blind... I think I have grown up to lose sight in things that could bring me down... I feel I am one who can let a lot go... Blink and its gone... Turn a blind eye... I try though I will be the 1st to say I do fail... but try to be blind to the hurt and focus on the love! I know everything is not always roses and sunshine... But I also know that crying and fussing about it isn't going to change it at all! Won't make it better to throw a fit about it. I have lasted 39 days b/c I except the things I cant change and changed the things I can. Like my outlook on it. I got to have 39 days to get to know Ty! I got to have 39 days to appricate the things I have outside this hospital! You tend to take things for granted.. My husband.. My bed.. My front door! The thing that is the hardest is being away from Tash so much! It breaks my heart and causes me the most pain! I try to juggle it all and have told myself on many occations that I need to step away and spend time with her and yet I can't leave Ty here... And when to her that we are leaving and she starts freaking out and crying and I ask her why.... Her reply... "mommy you can't leave Ty.. He would be so scared.. so alone.. he needs mommy right now.. you come home when he does. I can see you here! I think of that and I sit here and I cry to God on how incredible it is to have the opportunity to have one of the sweetest loving and understanding Child! Why did I do to get such a blessing from the lord! I praise the lord for my little family many times of day. As the tests are coming to an end and am told that they are to the end of what they can do.. I am not scared.. I am not nervous.. I do know we will figure it out.. Weither its now or later.. I do know that the most important thing to Randy and I is just taking him home.. Weither we find out that he is just going to be a peanut who can barely eat anything b/c he is allergic to it all... or to find that he has something that will affect his life and the way we live for the rest of our lives... He is our Ty.. Nothing has changed.. Nothing will change.. He is our Little Man.. Our TyTy.. Our Tyus! We will never know how long we have or how long our loved ones have here. Only God knows that! So each and everyday I get with the loves of my lives are treasures..

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Free 11 x 14 on foam core

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Set of 25 5x7 1 side Picture Cards w/ envelops

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8x10 Collage Print on Foam Core (4 pictures)

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Set of 25 4x6 photo cards w/ envelops

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8x10 collage (4 pictures included)

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New Mini Session!!

A little stroll in the park looking for bugs!!

Enjoying a spaghetti fight!!

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I recently did a 2 year old photoshoot!! Max!! How describe Max... All boy! He was very entergetic! Was always on the go! He reminded me of Max in Where the Wild Things Are! Which is still my favorite children's book! He was all about the bad guys! I LOVED it!! I couldn't stop smiling!! ;) He was yes very entergetic but one of the sweetest little boys! He was all about finding the bugs and the spiders! I loved getting the pleasure of following him around and capturing him being him! :) Couldn't have asked for a better day and I think the pictures really turned out terrific!! Thanks Max hope you have a terrific 2nd bday! :)

Family Art!

I will say I treasure my pictures a ton! Each one that we get printed has so much meaning behind it. There is always a story behind each shot! Weither its a posed one to one that no one was even aware that it had been taken! I have said it before and I will say it again... I love being behind the camera and HATE being in front of a camera! As most people I have a hard time looking at a picture of myself and saying OMG... I look fantastic! Though I see other pictures of people and think OMG... They look fantastic and they may look at it like seriously.... UGH... I hate how I look... So I guess its a extremly great lesson to always take the time to get infront of the camera and understand what others go through! I'm one that even though I may not like myself in pictures... down the line my children are going to adore them!! Heaven forbid something happen to me.. I want my kids to have tons of pictures of us together! To see what there Momma looked like!! Something that they will always be able to treasure for years to come!! I love the saying a picture says a thousand words.... To me its true... A picture can say soo much!! They way you get a picture printed can say so much more also.. You can take a picture make it into a 4x6 ratio and sure its adorable but you can turn it into say a 10x20 and it can turn into so much more!! Though even us as photographers have an extremely hard time shelling out money to get pictures printed... its so worth it! We recently got some pictures printed and we hung them up yesterday! It was amazing the difference I feel it has made our living room.. Amazing how sizes can just pop out more!!


Family Pictures 16x20 and 3- 10x10's



More pictures and my coffee table books! Just ordered 2 more!! :)


10x10's- Doing different sizes helps the pictures stick out more! Loving the Standout Boards! Really makes the picture pop more and makes them look like they are floating!






Coffee Table books are a big plus in my eyes!! I do a yearly one for each of our children and also for our trips we take! We really enjoy grabbing one and looking through them now and then and they really capture all of our treasured moments we get to have with each other!!


My hall way photos!! 2- 5x7's & a 8x10 both on foam core!

April Special!

So I was just telling Randy for I don't know the 100th time that we really need to get our family pictures done. The one in our living room a month after Tyus was born just didn't cut it! Being the one behind the camera I never end up getting pictures of me with the kiddos! I mean those fun little snap shots with my point and shoot are cute and all, but come on... I can't blow that up to anything more then a 4x6! I may not alway like the way I look but I also know that I love looking back to old pictures of when Tash was 1 and me holding her and her giving me big kisses!! They melt my heart every time!!! So I decided that for the month of April we are going to run a fun Mommy special!! Since May is in my eyes... The Month of the Mommy's!! We are offering mini sessions. A 30 min. session of Mommy's with thier Babies! You will get appox 10 poses of you and your little one/ones on a cd for $55! These shots are shots of you interacting with you little one/ones.. Laughing, smiling, hugs and kisses, toes and hands, tickles, etc... not just you looking at the camera and saying cheese! The moments that always make your hearts melt and you smile just get a little bigger!!

Hey Daddies... A very nice Mother's Day gift!!

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EXPRESSION! EMOTION! UNIQUENESS!

Got our new website template up and running. Will say I'm loving it! Really opens us up more. Gives us the opportunity to add more samples of our work! Expand our creativity a little more out there! As we have always stated we are always open to our clients to give us any critics. Weither good or bad! We accept it with open arms! One thing I couldn't change or delete on the website is the testimonals. I tried... But since I can't if anyone would love to write a little about us and don't mind if I quote you, we would really appriciate it! ;)

The last couple of weeks our family has been sick. We finally get over one thing and then on to something else. Thankfully we have been able to just stay at home and relax! But having a 3 month old and a 4 year old sick hasn't been the easiest! When you are sick and still having to get up at 3am.. Makes your body hurt worse! So I'm hoping that the kiddos get over this a lot faster then we do so they sleep a little better at night! That way we all can get better and enjoy this nice weather that has been coming our way! May not be 70's but I'll take the upper 50's to 60's any day!

We are super excited about getting out there and starting up Outside Portraits again! (Family, Engagements, Children, Seniors) We have really made some great goals for ourselves this year and excited to start to pushing our new motto!! EXPRESSION, EMOTION, UNIQUENESS!!